I just uploaded "Hold On - August 2011 Drum & Bass mix" to www.mixcloud.com, please listen now at: http://www.mixcloud.com/ezmyrelda/hold-on-august-2011-drum-bass-mix/
via Mixcloud
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Thursday, June 30, 2011
New favorite on Mixcloud.com
New favorite on Mixcloud.com
New Upload to Mixcloud.com
I just uploaded "Breakbeat Randomness" to www.mixcloud.com, please listen now at: http://www.mixcloud.com/ezmyrelda/breakbeat-randomness/
via Mixcloud
New Upload to Mixcloud.com
I just uploaded "Fireworks july 2011 Dub/Brostep Mix" to www.mixcloud.com, please listen now at: http://www.mixcloud.com/ezmyrelda/fireworks-july-2011-dubbrostep-mix/
via Mixcloud
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
New Upload to Mixcloud.com
I just uploaded "Seattle Spirit : An electro house mix by Ezmyrelda" to www.mixcloud.com, please listen now at: http://www.mixcloud.com/ezmyrelda/seattle-spirit-an-electro-house-mix-by-ezmyrelda/
via Mixcloud
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Things Are Amazing
Everyday that I am here with my beloved Autumn seems better than the
last. My life has changed so drastically in the last few months and I
know that it can only get better. Autumn is sweet, kind, beautiful..
All the things I have always wanted in a girlfriend. She shows me that
she loves me everyday. So as I'm sure you can see I have changed things around a bit. I no
longer have to use blogspot. I asked Autumn if I could host the blog
on the server that she uses and she very enthusiastically said yes.
Not only that, She started getting it done moments after I asked her
to. She even installed the shiny new Wordpress install and saved me
about half an hour of work. I haven't started working on any design
that will stick around for a great while. I am happy to just get
started working on which plugins I want installed and maybe set up a
few static pages as well. I adore Autumn and everyday I grow to love her more. Now that I am
embarking on a great new adventure and I have a nice shiny and
convenient copy of Wordpress installed I will be updating far more
often.
last. My life has changed so drastically in the last few months and I
know that it can only get better. Autumn is sweet, kind, beautiful..
All the things I have always wanted in a girlfriend. She shows me that
she loves me everyday. So as I'm sure you can see I have changed things around a bit. I no
longer have to use blogspot. I asked Autumn if I could host the blog
on the server that she uses and she very enthusiastically said yes.
Not only that, She started getting it done moments after I asked her
to. She even installed the shiny new Wordpress install and saved me
about half an hour of work. I haven't started working on any design
that will stick around for a great while. I am happy to just get
started working on which plugins I want installed and maybe set up a
few static pages as well. I adore Autumn and everyday I grow to love her more. Now that I am
embarking on a great new adventure and I have a nice shiny and
convenient copy of Wordpress installed I will be updating far more
often.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
A New Beginning
Ok, so I guess since so much has happened since my last post I should
let everybody know what is going on in my life. Some people will be
aware of all this since I am pretty active on fb and other places some
people will not be aware of these new developments. I have finally gotten out of Boise. I am now living in Cheney, Wa with
my girlfriend. This is a huge change for me. I miss everyone in Boise.
All my Dance Culture friends, All my Gothic/Industrial friends. My
close family, Mom, Felix, Za, and Imani. But I am glad to be with my
sweet and beautiful girlfriend Autumn. Job hunt begins next week. I am
nervous about finding work elsewhere but hopeful that everything here
is going to be a new experience. Spokane is interesting but I haven't
been able to explore it as fully as I would like to yet. As soon as I
get a job and can prove residency I am going to work on getting my
name changed legally. Then will come other little things like finding
a good doctor and starting laser treatment. When I can I dearly need
to find the Dance Culture scene around here because it is a part of my
life I feel I can't be apart from. There are new and very interesting scenes that Autumn is inviting me
into though and I know that it will all be filled with great new
experiences. More to follow. Love to all
Ezmy
let everybody know what is going on in my life. Some people will be
aware of all this since I am pretty active on fb and other places some
people will not be aware of these new developments. I have finally gotten out of Boise. I am now living in Cheney, Wa with
my girlfriend. This is a huge change for me. I miss everyone in Boise.
All my Dance Culture friends, All my Gothic/Industrial friends. My
close family, Mom, Felix, Za, and Imani. But I am glad to be with my
sweet and beautiful girlfriend Autumn. Job hunt begins next week. I am
nervous about finding work elsewhere but hopeful that everything here
is going to be a new experience. Spokane is interesting but I haven't
been able to explore it as fully as I would like to yet. As soon as I
get a job and can prove residency I am going to work on getting my
name changed legally. Then will come other little things like finding
a good doctor and starting laser treatment. When I can I dearly need
to find the Dance Culture scene around here because it is a part of my
life I feel I can't be apart from. There are new and very interesting scenes that Autumn is inviting me
into though and I know that it will all be filled with great new
experiences. More to follow. Love to all
Ezmy
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Intolerance in my "beloved" scene.
So last night at the party I found out that someone had complained that I was in the women's bathroom. The bathroom that I have used for at least a year now without complaint. Granted this is the first dance party I have been to at that particular building in about three or four years. I go to that venue around twice a month for the Gothic/Industrial parties. Not a one person has EVER complained I was in there at those parties. But the one dance party that I go to in several months, this happens. Am I to believe that our scene is more homophobic than Goths? Because thats what this was. Homophobia. I use the bathroom for just one thing. That thing is my particular business. I don't care who fucks who or does what off the toilet tank in anybody elses stall. I really wish they would leave me to do my business in my stall.
On the upside, Manic played some fucking dope Dubstep. It was the best music of the night.
P.S. Phil at Terrapin station, You can eat a dick.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Indeterminetly Incommunicado
I'm taking a break from society for awhile. I'll try to keep the reasons why and the histrionics to a minimum.
It suffices to say that I really just want to be alone right now and people are generally just fine with that. So I'm excusing myself from the party. I'm not sure why I'm even doing this anymore. I wasn't very acceptable when I was trying to be the gender I'm not and I'm a pretty spectacular failure at being the gender I know I am. So I will continue to be a failure.. alone. Seeing as how nobody reads this though.. I kinda am already aren't I?
It suffices to say that I really just want to be alone right now and people are generally just fine with that. So I'm excusing myself from the party. I'm not sure why I'm even doing this anymore. I wasn't very acceptable when I was trying to be the gender I'm not and I'm a pretty spectacular failure at being the gender I know I am. So I will continue to be a failure.. alone. Seeing as how nobody reads this though.. I kinda am already aren't I?
Friday, October 23, 2009
Readability
Reading is done on the internet on a constant basis. But how much of this is merely skimming while looking for key concepts and how much of the content we read do we miss by being constantly distracted by ads and superfluous and downright irrelevant links? Readability is a customizable bookmarklet designed to clear away everything that distracts the reader from focusing on the article they are reading. It allows one to quickly read articles and retain more because only the article in a well formatted and clean layout is left. It is customizable so you can set things like size and basic fonts and margins for your favorite layout. It is essentially the readers analogue to software like Darkroom and Writeroom. Try it and see how much it helps you enjoy what you are reading.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Who R U? Why, I hardly know.
I've come home tonight from a coming out party. Coming out to who or
what I hardly know. Leaving tonight I wanted to feel a sense of
togetherness; coming home I feel just as alone if not more than I've
ever felt. Nothing can displace me from this sense of solitude. I am
just as alone as I've always been. What the hell am I going to do with
a handful of lube when all I wanted is a warm hand or a backrub. Who
am I being strong for when the only person that has ever been my lover
is myself? I'm lonely. Really though, who gives an Eff? I'm tired of ... being a little girl. of being torn by my fathers death. of being
alone. I'm tired of being. alone. The more I want it to change; the
less it will. Tempered by fire. strengthened by solitude. Life sucks. and then you take 2 more milligrams of estriadol,
because.. fuck it. It's there.
what I hardly know. Leaving tonight I wanted to feel a sense of
togetherness; coming home I feel just as alone if not more than I've
ever felt. Nothing can displace me from this sense of solitude. I am
just as alone as I've always been. What the hell am I going to do with
a handful of lube when all I wanted is a warm hand or a backrub. Who
am I being strong for when the only person that has ever been my lover
is myself? I'm lonely. Really though, who gives an Eff? I'm tired of ... being a little girl. of being torn by my fathers death. of being
alone. I'm tired of being. alone. The more I want it to change; the
less it will. Tempered by fire. strengthened by solitude. Life sucks. and then you take 2 more milligrams of estriadol,
because.. fuck it. It's there.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
I Am A
Person who blogs using posterous to maximize my efficiency and post to
all my accounts to get my words out. Snarky/Clever Title and intro out of the way, This:
http://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/9qx25/i_am_a_mtf_transsexual_lesbian_ama/
is my reddit "I Am A - Ask Me Anything" thread. I got bored.. I think
I may want to study the issues in depth and detail and make a career
of talking about it openly at businesses and .. talk seminars or some
such. I mean seriously.. If I am going to get this done I am going to
need to make BANK! What better way than to foster understanding about
the issue and really do something to help change the world for the
better?
all my accounts to get my words out. Snarky/Clever Title and intro out of the way, This:
http://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/9qx25/i_am_a_mtf_transsexual_lesbian_ama/
is my reddit "I Am A - Ask Me Anything" thread. I got bored.. I think
I may want to study the issues in depth and detail and make a career
of talking about it openly at businesses and .. talk seminars or some
such. I mean seriously.. If I am going to get this done I am going to
need to make BANK! What better way than to foster understanding about
the issue and really do something to help change the world for the
better?
Caffeine for the enrichment of life.
It's amazing how the addition or subtraction of caffeine can make or
break a day. I had coffee this morning, so far so good!
break a day. I had coffee this morning, so far so good!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
I have rights?
And so begins my third day of wearing only skirts to work instead of pants to win a right that I didn't ask for in the first place. Tell me I can't use the womens restroom when I didn't ask! I don't have to justify how I transition to anybody. Apperantly women don't wear pants in this century.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Round and round she goes..
Where she stops.. and starts.. and how she jumps around well.. That
would be entirely up to you. This is the most recent offering from The
Strange Agency whose other apps Curtis Heavy and Sound Scope Space I already own. I love the design and color schemes
this software publisher uses. I have always been fond of blue and red
and purple. I also love the simplicity of the vector inspired designs.
These apps take the music making paradigm in another direction and
show use how we can manipulate sound sound in two dimensions and yet
still keep it fresh. The DSP Algorithms are elegant and do not produce
dropouts or glitches. I can tell this new app is going to be just as
much fun as the others.
would be entirely up to you. This is the most recent offering from The
Strange Agency whose other apps Curtis Heavy and Sound Scope Space I already own. I love the design and color schemes
this software publisher uses. I have always been fond of blue and red
and purple. I also love the simplicity of the vector inspired designs.
These apps take the music making paradigm in another direction and
show use how we can manipulate sound sound in two dimensions and yet
still keep it fresh. The DSP Algorithms are elegant and do not produce
dropouts or glitches. I can tell this new app is going to be just as
much fun as the others.
Friday, September 25, 2009
Where is it all going?
So I have been losing weight over the last several months. This is odd
and it causes me to wonder and get somewhat nervous. I've always
stayed at pretty much the same weight throughout my adult life and
have never been able to gain much. The weight that I did seem to gain
went mostly to my stomach, pretty much being in accord with what most
men get; a beer gut. That is pretty much all gone. As well (of course)
as the expected muscle loss. I didn't think I would see this as an
effect but it is somewhat nice considering that if I stick my gut out
as much as possible all I see is a slightly rounded curvature that
looks very feminine. So I got the stomach I never knew I always wanted
but at the same time I have also had really bad stomach cramps for the
last three days. Breasts are at roughly the same tenderness level they have been for
about 3 months. There is also intermittent puffiness. The shape is
coming in more.. I still don't think I'm an A cup but in certain poses
they do look more like breasts than a skinny guys chest. My family is coming to visit Boise in about a week. Not my immediate
family; My Grandmother, Aunt, and Aunt and Uncle. My Grandmother being
the only person I don't believe I've come out to. I told my Cousin,
and so I believe my aunt and uncle in Seattle know. But I'm not sure
I've told my uncle because it doesn't really matter if they know or
not (Not that they aren't great people because they are, I just don't
see them flying off the handle and shunning me or treating me any
differently.). I see them only a couple of times every 3 or so years
apart. They have little effect on my life so it was never an issue. I
know for a fact that I've never told my Grandmother because I haven't
seen her since before I started transitioning. I'm really not sure
what she will think.. I don't think it would be especially bad.. She
accepted that one of her grandsons (adopted) was gay. On the other
hand I think our relationship has been mutual disinterest at best. All the same this doesn't really affect me, nor do I believe I will
see them more than maybe twice for a couple of minutes each during
they week long visit. I work 5 days a week. most of the day so I don't
think they will want to wait around for me to get off of work before
they go to dinner. A sit down meal might be the only reason this
matters at all. Anyway.. Thats my update for now. For an update of what I look like I
have enclosed pictures. These aren't new to facebook but I have
started to use posterous more often so that I can make my updates
available to all of my online outlets.
and it causes me to wonder and get somewhat nervous. I've always
stayed at pretty much the same weight throughout my adult life and
have never been able to gain much. The weight that I did seem to gain
went mostly to my stomach, pretty much being in accord with what most
men get; a beer gut. That is pretty much all gone. As well (of course)
as the expected muscle loss. I didn't think I would see this as an
effect but it is somewhat nice considering that if I stick my gut out
as much as possible all I see is a slightly rounded curvature that
looks very feminine. So I got the stomach I never knew I always wanted
but at the same time I have also had really bad stomach cramps for the
last three days. Breasts are at roughly the same tenderness level they have been for
about 3 months. There is also intermittent puffiness. The shape is
coming in more.. I still don't think I'm an A cup but in certain poses
they do look more like breasts than a skinny guys chest. My family is coming to visit Boise in about a week. Not my immediate
family; My Grandmother, Aunt, and Aunt and Uncle. My Grandmother being
the only person I don't believe I've come out to. I told my Cousin,
and so I believe my aunt and uncle in Seattle know. But I'm not sure
I've told my uncle because it doesn't really matter if they know or
not (Not that they aren't great people because they are, I just don't
see them flying off the handle and shunning me or treating me any
differently.). I see them only a couple of times every 3 or so years
apart. They have little effect on my life so it was never an issue. I
know for a fact that I've never told my Grandmother because I haven't
seen her since before I started transitioning. I'm really not sure
what she will think.. I don't think it would be especially bad.. She
accepted that one of her grandsons (adopted) was gay. On the other
hand I think our relationship has been mutual disinterest at best. All the same this doesn't really affect me, nor do I believe I will
see them more than maybe twice for a couple of minutes each during
they week long visit. I work 5 days a week. most of the day so I don't
think they will want to wait around for me to get off of work before
they go to dinner. A sit down meal might be the only reason this
matters at all. Anyway.. Thats my update for now. For an update of what I look like I
have enclosed pictures. These aren't new to facebook but I have
started to use posterous more often so that I can make my updates
available to all of my online outlets.
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